Lately, we’ve had a problem with the menus crashing on the site. We’ve tried all different fixes to no avail. Once we see the menus are down, we can reset them. So I guess it could be worse. But overall it’s a pretty major problem with the website that is still haunting us.
In addition to feeling frustrated, I’ve also felt fear that this might be the end of FiddleHed, thinking, “I’m just not cut out to run a business.” That thought is followed by, “it would be nice to just have a regular job where I do the work, get paid, have health insurance and a 401k. When done with the job, I could go home and forget about it until the next day.”
There’s also this feeling of being responsible to you, the student. Some of you are at a critical point, in which you are close to becoming established in your fiddle practice. When there’s a problem with the site, that becomes just another obstacle to you on your fiddle journey, along with work, family obligations, health issues, etc. And so I get the feeling that I’m letting you down.
Then, after reflecting on all this, I realized that a lot of my struggle is similar to what some of you are struggling with as you learn the fiddle. You hit upon obstacles that you just can’t seem to get around. And then negative emotions kick into gear. You feel like you’re letting yourself and others down. You worry that you may fail. You think that maybe some people are born to play the fiddle (or run businesses) while others (you) aren’t. And on and on.
And so a lot of the playing advice that I constantly offer I’m trying to apply to myself but in the context of running FiddleHed.
Listen and learn
Be kind to yourself
And most importantly: Don’t give up!!!!
Ok, thanks much for your patience. With the site, but also with yourself.